needed information

i had ics today and we checked on my application to the apartment i toured in boston when i took a trip there last. good thing too because the ics asked me if i sent this information and i could've sworn that another ics worker assisted me in sending it in a while ago but zen said they didn't.. so he had to enter everything in and we need a doctor to state that i'm disabled. since it's sunday, i couldn't call the doctor's office, so the best i could do was call my care coordinator and left him a voicemail saying i needed a letter from my doctor saying i was disabled for the apartment that i'm applying to in boston. i hope i can get this information as soon as possible because i need to get this information to the apartment soon in order to confirm my application.
i was thinking (i probably mentioned this before).. and my family is responsible for my PTSD. i wasn't diagnosed with PTSD right after my accident like a person would assume.. my recent psychologist diagnosed me with PTSD after her last evaluation with me. i'm thinking that when i had dreams about my dad kicking me by accident while meaning to kick my mom, when she was holding ME in FRONT OF HER.. those reminscant dreams coincidentally came during my last surgery on my blocked bowel.. sorta like God was trying to tell me why i was going through what i was currently going through. i remember looking up PTSD a while ago and it mentions having traumatic dreams about traumatic events in a person's life.. so that explains why i was diagnosed with PTSD. it's NOTHING but NEGLECTFUL for amanda and the rest of my "care" team to avoid helping to get me as FAR from my mom as possible, because she obviously has the worst intentions and motives for me. i'm pretty sure the LACK of care towards my brother and i has to do something with trying to get back at my dad through me (and my brother.. who DOES have the SAME father as me.. kinda explains how she felt entitled to steal a bunch of money from my brother when she did a while ago too). your narcissistic ass should've just aborted us since you don't plan on taking care or loving us fully if other people aren't giving you attention or credit for it. you should've just stuck to having fucking dogs. you're obviously not suited and responsible enough to be a mother. now you can go whine about how i came to this realization to grandma's friends or any other relatives that can tolerate your whining. i'm not gonna help you or listen to you anymore.. you're just a big clingy idiot who wants to drag everyone who is actually trying to make a life for themselves down. you don't have the best intentions for me. you feel the need to drag me down to your level and cling to me because.. MISERY LOVES COMPANY! like i said.. you have another daughter WITH children (your grandchildren) that you can concentrate on! be a good grandma and see how they're doing. although i just remembered something- she would probably beat your ass like her dad used to if you bothered her. so it's probably just best to resume talking to your dogs.